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But it does give you the kick, it gives you the smoke which is a water based vapor. It is great.
I checked out different companies who sell it, and this one is by far the best. The price is good and you get a whole bunch of stuff with it.
Just thought let everyone know in case you are trying to quit or know someone who would like to, it really works.
If it isn’t one thing, It’s another
Well just got back from the Specialist.
He thinks my Liver is just fat, because I am very fat!
Hmmmmmmmm
But he found that I have IBS. I said “IBS”
IBS is nothing…it is like the flu! Right????
But no it isn’t so he say’s.
It can be a chronic sickness. REALLY???
All the sign for IBS I do have. Which makes me think I should redecorate and paint my bathroom. Perhaps put a tv up, get a laptop, make it comfy since I spend so much time there…lol
He say’s the nausea, the bouts of bad pain, diarrhea since May non-stop with only a few days of real bad constipation, the being able to cook but than get nauseated to the point that I can’t eat it, all these are sign of real bad IBS.
He will do more testing but for right now I am on yet more and ew medicine. Have to go back in 4 weeks to see how I respond to the meds.
He said it is good that my family doctor put me on Fmla, because it will take a long time to adjust to all this.
Adjusting???
I want it to go away!
But I have to lose weight too. He wants me to go on a low-fat diet, and starting to exercise.
Right!
Feeling in the dumps right now, so you all have a great day
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ANDREA’s Life as it turns yet AGAIN
Hi you all,
I know in the recent month’s I haven’t been active on here, but nevertheless I am still here.
My life is turning all the time, and right now I am in a season of asking the Lord for peace.
I was diagnosed with a bad liver and yet still waiting to see the specialist which will be Sep. 9th. Because of this I am lots of times unable to go to work or even if I go I have to come back home. My bloodpressure is bad as well.
So it started all in May. I had severe stomach pain. And my BP was 180/120. SO we tried different drugs for the pain until we found out through a ultrasound that it is my liver.
We finally got the BP under control with little flare-ups.
But the liver gives me weird symptoms.
For example I cook my husbands dinner for the whole week. THe next day I go to work and want to take some food with me, and I cant even look at the food or smell it.
Lots of times I dont take no food with me. Or I have to purchase something on the go. If I eat only of what Id esire my body works with it most of times, but if I just take what I have at home for example, than my body wont let me eat it, or worse i will spend the rest of the day in the bathroom.
It also comes with pain that starts in the pit of my stomach and moves down to the right side where the liver is.
Also AGAIN my son was arrested for almost the identical crime he done a couple years ago. So he is in jail and he calls and cries. But I am tough on that. he has to go through this, I can’t and wont help him. Of course I will be there when he needs me to talk or to write or to visit, but that’s it.
I told him, I know you clinging on to me now, but when the time comes and your out for a while you will dump me as many times before, but I am used to it, and I will love you no matter what. Do I like you I asked? Not at all times I don’t!
But I will be here for you, that’s what Mother’s do!
Anyways, because of the illness I am losing lots of work, but the bills keep going, and we desperately need the money but I just cant go or stay at work LOTS of times. This last paycheck I had 40 hrs for two weeks and the same will be next paycheck. I am not writing here to get donations, NO, I am writing because when I write it, lots of times makes me feel better.
Than this happened……
so Michael Jackson died, and I cried, Ted Kennedy died and I cried, a song plays on the radio and I cry, in a movie a girl is taken and I cry. I cry if you say “hello” to me. And it is driving me nuts and I think my husband too. I am not like that (except you want me to quit smoking)(just a joke, am I entitle to a joke??? My goodness)
So today I went to my doctor and YES, she sat down with me over an hour and we talked about everything and guess what??? I cried!! 
We talked about the Lord and how He will heal me, and will heal me from the depression and anxiety I am going through now. He will touch me. She told me she will pray for me daily, that she loves me, that He loves me, and that I should pray for peace. Cause all the worrying about missing work in turn missing money comes all from me been anxious about whats going on with my liver and the pain. And that in turn throws me into depression. So she gave me a WHOLE lot of antidepressants for free, and prescribed anxiety meds. So now I am on 6 meds on a daily basis. And who knows when I finally see the Specialist there might be more meds in my future.
But she is also right about another thing…
I thought I had lots of friends and sadly found out that isn’t so true. Cause I never hear from anyone again. The only friend that continous to call me and email me is my german friend who lives a couple hours away. And of course my cousin who also lives a couple hours away from me. But the people I knew who live right here, I dont hear from them nomore. I tried make contact but was politely told that he/she didnt has no time, and never heard from again.
So in times like these you do see who your real friends are.
Yes some might be upset cause I don’t go to church but they do need to understand that I am working in times where they have worship, that I am working in times where they have small group meetings. And that I am not a stay at home wife. And than that there are times where I might be off ONCE in a while and I do want to spend it with my husband. And perhaps want to sleep, because I am not feeling well.
But than again, God see’s and knows everything and He see’s me too.
I am just glad I found a doctor who is a godfearing lady and a supervisor who is a godfearing guy and pastor. Sadly he left where I work to be a fulltime minister at Radford College here in VA. But he gave me his email and phone# so I can call on him anytime.
So, now some people might read that and feeel attacked, but believe me this is not my intention in any way, but if you do feel that way, I wonder WHY you feel this way?
I did not write this to make people angry at me, or sorry for me or anything, I did this to vent. Since I dont have people to talk to about how I feel, I let it out here! And I think no one can tell me how I have to feel about things.
I am human, I feel, I am hurt, I am in pain, and I guess I am depressed due to many things!!
Praying for my sanity and peace from the Lord
Andrea
MICHAEL JACKSON 1958 – 2009
Written and Composed by Michael Jackson.
Produced by Michael Jackson.
Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for the world that I come from
‘Cause I’ve been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart…
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities…
‘Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me…
People say I’m not okay
‘Cause I love such elementary things…
It’s been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I’ve never known…
Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne…
Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I’m strange that way
‘Cause I love such elementary things,
It’s been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood (Childhood) I’ve never known…
Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
But the dreams I would dare, watch me fly…
Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I’ve had
Have you seen my Childhood….
IT HAS BEEN WAYYYY TO LONG, I KNOW
I know its been a while. But lots of things have happened.
First the indiscretions of my husband, than i was diagnosed ill.
So hubby and I are doing good.
Still working for Dishnetwork and loving it. I think my personality is a “helper” I love helping people. I love trying to figure out what their problem is and fixing it. For once in my life i think I am at the right job. And only with God I got this job, cause after all He is the only one who knows what is right for me.
We work lots of overtime, and this is not really my cup of tea, but I still love it. One day I know i will get a better shift. Since I work there I havent been to Church whatsoever, and I do miss it, especially all my friends at Church 
But Emanual “HE is with us” and He is with me, I know this because without Him I wouldnt be able to do all this.
So several weeks back , I started getting really bad stomach pain. After a couple of weeks it got so bad, I could hardly sleep, sit, stand or eat.
One day I finally went to t a doctor and was told I have stomach ulcers.
So they put me on meds of course, and who knew….I am allergic to most of them.
I am constantly getting more sick. The pain is better, but the side effects are bad.
Since about 4 weeks I am on/off working. Sometimes I make it through the day , sometimes I dont and have to leave.
Praise the Lord though that my employer is understanding so far. Also was diagniosed with high bloodpressure too. They checked my BP at work and it was at 170/101. So they called an ambulance and off I went to the hospital. Only that the doc at the hosp[ital told me I have anxiety.
The next day my doctor called me and i had to be in her office immediatly. At that time my BP was 180/110. She said it is not an anxiety attacke it is dangerous and I need to be on meds for it. So on a new med we got and continue to stay on it.
And so I am hanging in there, and hopefully these ulcers will heal.
If they wont heal shortly she wants me to get an endoscopy done. And that ’s what I dont want. I am not in the business of swallowing pipes and such!
Ok, the other news are……………
I wanted a dog for a long time now. Husband constantly against it. I keep telling him he dont have to care for the dog ,I will care for it.
He said ” I will be very disappointed if you bring a dog home”
Well, what can I say…………..I GOT A DOG!
Today I went to the SPCA and got me a dog. Doctor thinks it is a wonderful idea since I need to walk. SO I have a walking partner now.
And about Husband’s disappointment…………WELLLLLLLLLLLLLL…can you imagine how disappointed Iw as when he went out with other women???
There you go!
Wanna see a pic?????
May I introduce…………. TESSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to the SPCA and found her, she is a standard Schnauzer mix ( I think it is CHOW CHOW in her) I can tell by the tongue and the tail. Her weight is 63 pounds. She is housebroken, well tempered. Looks like a big old teddybear. And yes she is 8 years old. Nobody wanted to adopt her. But I fell in love with her when I saw her!!!
So Husband got up this evening for work and he dont seem to be disappointed I think ?!
Who know’s
The only comment he made was ” She got a few month’s left” I said well a few years more like it.
You probably want to know about my son?
WEll he is the same old son I had a year ago..lol
He has another child, is not together with the mother of the child. I havent even seen a picture yet. And at this time…I dont know where he is at or what he is doing. Haven’t heard from him in a couple month’s
Also my other grandchild “Hunter”, I havent seen him sionce august last year. I still have the christmas toys here I bought him. The Mother says, she is never off when I am off. But she also told me that she got married and that her Husband adopted the little one. Which I think is wonderful. And I do understand if perhaps her husband does not like if she spends time with me. So I let it rest and wait. I called her and left her a message “I do understand if this is the case that your husband dont want you to have contact with me bcause of my son, but I would appreciate at least a call, a confirmation, something. I am always here for you and Hunter, you got my number. Love you both”
Thats all I can do I guess ?!
Thats all folks!!!!!!!!
May God be with you all and bless you richly
Love and Blessings
Andrea
You want the REAL story??..Here it is…
Well, I am not feeling good. Actually I am feeling…….very much alone right now!
It began about 6 weeks ago…………..
my husband for no reason announced to me that even after a year and a half he can not use the cellphone to do a text message. At that I laughed. He stated he can only reply to those messages.
I never thought anything about it.
OF COURSE, I believed it!
The lady asked me if I would like unlimited text messaging? I said “yeah! I need that because I do text a lot”. She replied “well, for your phone you really dont need it, but for your husbands line you do!”
I told her it must of been a mistake my husband dont even know how to text. She explained that my husband has about tripple the text messages than I.
Of course that evening I asked him about it. He played it down, and said “You know the guys at work they send jokes and we send them back and forth and forward”
ME…of course believed it!!!
Why wouldnt I ????
Anyways, about December 22nd, early morning, my husband gets off work and where does he go….straight home RIGHT!!
No, I wake up, and he isnt home. Of course I call him on HIS cellphone. HE telling me he is on his way home, I said well it is 6am, shouldnt you be here?
Ok, for some odd reason I pulled up his bank account, and low and behold he spent 23.00 dollars at Denny’s. Of course he telling me he invited a old man that works with him. ISNT HE KIND?????
Alright, I OF COURSE believed every word he said!!!
There was however a charge for a toy from a store in Roanoke. There also was a 16.00 dollar charge for a christmas card. 16.00 dollars. WOW ONE CARD?? I don’t think so. But ok!
Now here we go, are you ready…………………….
He is not at home.
I call him, ” Iam on the way” he replied. Ok, but where are you coming from??? From work??
“No, me and THE GUYS, went to Denny’s!”
I went to the bank account and again, he spend 23.79 dollar.
I ask him ” Invited someone?” “yes, a coworker, who didnt have any money”
And yes, I found phone number’s from a couple women, a Sticker from a Floral Bouquet, price still on there,…..BUT….I never received any flowers….hmmmm
And there was ONE number that keeps coming up and up and up……..and YES I called that number, and a woman answers. I hung up!
Oh I tried the other number too, and YES another woman answers, and I hung up.
But this one number is the one. She texts him and he texts her. It starts at about 6pm EVERY evening, and it goes back and forth every few minutes until about 9pm…thats when he has to work…..than it continues right after work until about 11:00am or 12 noon. EVERY DAY!
There are hundreds of text messages between them two since november.
Now, isnt that suspicious??
Is this all in my mind???
You think I should ask him???
Oh, I already did, and guess what?
It is all in my mind, I am crazy, I should stay out of his personal bank account.
Yeah thats where I am at.
by the way did I mention that my husband cheated on me the same way from 1996-97 to about 1999, thats when I left him.
RIGHT!
I am sick to my stomach, I couldnt stay at work, I had to go home. I wanted to REALLY confront him. But I didnt. Oh, he had to leave early tonight too. He usually leaves at about 8:30pm. Tonight he went in early at 7pm
Yet still and espcially now, I praise God. I know He loves me, He will take care of me, He will guide me, He will work this out. All praises to Him from whom all Blessings flow
What’s going on with Andrea ???
It has been a long time since I posted.
The year went by so quickly it makes my head spin. I did not feel old until this year!
Constantly I am tired and wore out.
I left Wal-Mart in the middle of March this year, and moved on to a different position with Dishnetwork. I did not know that a sitting down job really gets me at the core.
No no, I love it, but it is very demanding. My body does not move (thats not a good thing when your a heavy person) but my brain runs a marathon every day.
Every single day I learn something new. Every call is a new challenge!
But guess what???
I LOVE IT!
The only downside on this job is….
I haven’t been in Church since August, the last time I set foot in our Church was on August 10th. At first it was that I was on a shift where I got home between 2:30am and 3:30am, than there was the hope of getting a new shift since we had shiftbids coming up in October.
Well October came it we didnt get a single bid.
I did however get a new shift on December 13th. Unfortunately it wasnt what I wanted. Now my shift is from 2pm to 11pm. But I have to work Sundays. And on Sundays we have to come in earlier. So again I am waiting for another shiftbid.
But with God all things are possible, I just have to wait for His timing and everything will be ok.
Currently I am fighting a bronchitis, but I am over the worsest part of it I think. Fever is gone, just losing my voice here and there.
My son came back home for a little while and now a week ago moved out and found a place to live in the city. He also got himself a job starting the 1st of the year with the Roanoke Hospital as a assistant manager in there cafeteria.
I am very happy for him!
The only thing I do not like is that he tries so hard to talk me into talking to his wife. Yes they are really married, and she is pregnant. He says his wish would be that I talk to her and forgive her for what she done. I already forgave her but that does not mean that I have to go down the same road again.
I keep telling him give it time, time heals all things, and when God wants me to have contact with my daughter-inlaw it’ll happen sometime.
My husband is doing real well since the surgery. And praise God that neither his or my company are planning on any lay-offs.
I think even if people lose their jobs they still want to watch tv (perhaps even more) and people also trying to fix their cars themselfs or buy parts to let someone fix it for them. For now we are in good shape!
My Mom is sill very very ill! She cant beat this throat cancer thing. I havent heard my Mom’s voice in about a year or longer, and it is sad. I miss her voice, since that was the only thing I had since I live in the States.
My grandbaby is doing real well and he is turning 2 on December 30th. I havent seen him since August neither because of his mom’s and my work schedule it just doesnt work out for us to get together. But we are planning to meet January 1st before I go to work!
I am still so happy about our home, but we have issues with the fireplace. Smoke keeps rolling in even with little wind outside. I ordered a smoke guard that should help but what we really need is a chimney cap and neither me or hubby knows anything about installing such a thing. We have no clue!!!
My Chimney on top of the roof that part is totally open, and any little wind goes right down to the fireplace. Many times we had super smoke in the house because of that.
Also we had lots of issues with wood. The first guy was very expansive the second guy sold us rotten wood that wouldnt burn but more likely melted. And it was light as styrofoam.
Now we finally found a guy that delivers better wood but it is all hardwood and it takes a long time to get a good fire going.
So guy’s you have a update now. I will post again as soon as I can.
I always think of you all and especially of the friends and family of my Church. I miss out on so much I know.
Keep God first !
Love and Blessings
Andrea
Surgery went well….
Just wanted to drop a quick note to all who asked and called…
Michael made it through Surgery ok…
it was scheduled at 8am this morning, but he didnt get in until noon. The Surgeon told us the Surgery will take 1 hour, but it took three hours because of some complications.
Michael’s veins are not that great and the were busting one after another, so therefore it took much longer than expected.
Also because of the busting and bleeding, he wasnt released two hours afterwards but 6 hours later. He had to stay and was actually admitted into a room. He had to lay flat on his back and wasnt aloud to lift his head.
We left this morning at 7am the house (I had one and a half hour of sleep) and we got back home shortly before 11pm. PHEWWW
He is in pain right now, but he took some pills and finally went to Bed now.
Tomorrow I will call the doctor and check when he has to come back for checking of the opening and whatever else we need to know.
He is doing well…Praise the Lord!
So thats it I need to go get some Zzzzzzzzz myself now
Love Andrea
The 44th President of the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
Well, it was a long ride, but it finally came to an end!!!
The Mayority won HUGE!!
The new President of the United States of America BARACK OBAMA
CONGRATULATIONS !!!!!!!!!!
