HeAintThroughWithMeYet

What can I say???????????

I am running (really running) everyday, all day long mostly. And my legs just can’t handle this abuse anymore. I have fits even hours after I get home from work, and even when I lay down in bed. I wake up many times a night and am in pain. Now I think I am addicted to Ibuproven. I take each time four (4) little 200mg pills. And now they don’t even help me anymore. To all that my first day off after a few day’s of working is Sunday and there is the dilemma. I just want to hang out in the house, don’t go anywhere or do anything.
You all should see me, my husband is laughing when I come downstairs in the morning. I can not walk like a regular person down the steps. I walk each step at a time. I have to hold on to the wall on one side and the rail on the other. Or when I get up from the couch, I have to stand for a few minutes before I can even think of walking away. And than I just limp for a few steps. I feel like I am 80 years old. “See what Wal-Mart can do for you”

Enough of this rambling now.
Wishing you all a great evening

In His Grip
Andrea

One more thing……….

I had to park in a parking garage in downtown for the interview. Well it was exactly 45 minutes later when I got back. I had my 2 dollars in hand and the ticket as I tried to exit the garage. Guess what??? Nobody was sitting in that little ticket house.  I blew the horn, but no one came. There was also no spot to put the ticket and the money. So I sat there and sat there but after ten minutes I drove off.
What would you have done?

What can I say?

Again my boss came in and the only thing she had to say “I need some keys” this is so frustrating to me, I  can’t tell you how much it is bothering me. I am a joyful person, even with all the ups and downs in my life.

I might cry sometimes because of my son or other problems but I usually get it together and don’t let it out on other people. But this supervisor of mine she just let  all her frustration out on me and another coworker. I talked to the other coworker but she wont go to management to complain. She believes in, as soon as she finds another job she is outta there!

Today well since Saturday I am in a mood myself when I am here alone. I was reading for awhile now the blog at Mom2My6Pack and she wrote many times now about the boy who was diagnosed with cancer in the brain. The child is only four years old. And she has a link on her blog to the blog of the mother of that child. It is more a journal of the boy’s sickness from the beginning which was March of last year.

I found this on my friends blog MomLovesBeingAtHome

So I had to check it out for myself. Obvioustly I am not nerdy.
Wondering……is this a good thing……

Well check yours and let me know!

So now it has been a few days and still there hasn’t been any change between my supervisor and myself. She doesn’t like me for reason unknown to me. I don’t like to work like that. See we get enough grief from customer’s and management, it don’t need to be that there is hostility between the two of us.

I do have good news. I am invited for an interview with a bank here in town. The interview is on Tuesday afternoon. It is a simple teller position, the not-so-good thing is that it is only part time.

My hubby and I will discuss this evening if I should go for it or not. He understand my problem with running all day and he especially understands the conflicts between my supervisor and I.

The stupid thing is, I really like what I am doing, I love the customer’s even the mean ones
If I just had a different supervisor everything would be fine besides my leg problems.

Well, all I can do is pray that the Lord gives me wisdom to discern a good job from a not-so-good one. And that he opens the door wide for the job he wants me to have. I leave it totally in my Father’s Hand on what will happen in my life.

About my son well, I never heard from him again. But I do hear from the creditors. He writes checks to everyone, but satisfies none of them. I can only shake my head in disbelief of what he is doing and where he is ending up if he continues to go the same route. There is nothing I can do anymore. He is an adult and he has to make his own decisions and reap the consequences. And if he makes bad ones, the consequences will be accordingly.

It is sad though, you raise a child he is your little prince, and than he becomes like he is now. And I don’t now where this came from. I am clueless to how he can become this way. There should be a manual to raise a child, shouldn’t there ?
Of course even though, I am ok with him not calling me and not showing up, it weighs on my mind constantly. There is no day that passes where I don’t think of my son and what he is doing. And not knowing is hard to, even if I rather not know.

Wishing you a blessed weekend
Andrea

I don’t get it. My immediate Supervisor has problems with me and I can’t fix them. She tell’s me to tell cashier’s to clean or whatever she wants me to tell them. Than I tell them and they in return complain to her about me. And instead of backing me up, she tell’s them …She never told me to tell them that…than she get’s mad at me. And I am at my wit’s end with her.

On Saturday she came in and more likely yelled at me about that we will have a meeting and all the CSM’s will do their job after that. Yesterday I worked from 5am to 2pm. The following CSM didn’t show up for work so management took it on their own to call her to come in on her day off. She had to come in to cover from 2pm to 5pm till the next CSM comes in. She never said ONE single word to me. Even when I gave her the keys to the cash drawer which is what we do. She took it  and made it a point to look to the floor.

To top it all, I never was told that we had a “mandatory” meeting today. I got to Wal-Mart on my day off and was told we have a meeting in 20 minutes.

The meeting was with her, the assistant manager and the store manager.I told the store manager that I wasn’t informed about that we have a meeting today and he says, well didn’t you get your email….EMAIL????? What they have my personal email address??? From who???
NO NO, not personal I am a CSM now for 6 month’s and nobody ever told me that I have an email account and that I have to check that on a regular basis. Of course he asked me…did nobody ever tell you? My reply…NO!

Than in the meeting she never spoke up.

Well all the above I wrote last night.

Now it is a day later and I came home from work to tell you the update……..

Today I again was the “opening” CSM> The next one should be with me at about 10am. Well she called in at 8am telling me her car is towed and she can’t make it in.
And of course management called YOU KNOW WHO to come in early.
In the meantime I was informed by a department manager that she overheard my supervisor talking really bad about me.
I also received a call from another coworker. And that coworker told me that my supervisor has it out for me. She said that I should really watch out that I am been set-up by that supervisor. I just wonder, WHY????
Well came to find out she feels threatened by me. BY ME???
Yeah!
So this afternoon I had a meeting with the store manager and made use of the “open door policy”
I told him everything that is going on. And he assured me that this will be handled totally confidential. That he will approach that subject with her from a different angle. And he said…that he is the new store manager and he doesn’t care how long my supervisor works there, but that she has to have respect for me as well as I do for her.

He also said…I should give it till Monday for things to turn around, but if it hasn’t turned around by than, he will take care of the problem.

All I can say is…WE WILL SEE!!!!
Actions speak louder than words, right???

I go through this for a while now, surely I can wait till Monday!

Enough with this now.

For tonight the calling for snow and ice here where I live. But they been predicting snow and ice a few times this winter and it didn’t happen, so I wait and see how it looks in the morning.

I already read my daily chapter in the Bible and I again have to say…I love this Bible I got. It really keeps me on track!

And no I haven’t heard from my son since about a week now. The last time he called me a liar was that last I heard from him. Even though I texted him and asked if he started the school yet. And to let me know how he is doing. Well obviously he don’t want my support.
I do have to say, I am getting used to not to hear from him. I hope this is not a bad thing to feel the way I do right now about him!?

To get one more time back to my job………

this morning I truly treaded to go to work, I actually was contemplating to call in. I prayed all the way to work that God would protect me from my supervisor’s venom today. And I praise Him, because I had a actually good day after I talked to the store manager. That new store manager gave me a bit of confidence back when we talked. And I needed that!!!

Praise God from whom all Blessings flow, praise Him all creatures here below. Praise Him above ye heavenly host, Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.
Amen

You all have a wonderful, and Blessed evening

Andrea

I am so depressed this passed day’s, I can’t even understand the world no more. Of course the little bit of sunshine on my horizon is now my grandson, but even that people have to find fault in me for it.

Well, my supervisor is a very very moody person. One day she comes in or I come in and she is all laughs, but than in a whim she can be the total opposite. Mostly her good times last no longer than a day.

Like this passed Saturday.

I worked my behind off from 6 am to 7:30 am. Cashiers didn’t show up for work, and I had to jump on the register (which is ok with me. I don’t mind working hard). She comes in at 8:30 and instead of saying at least a “Hello” she said in a very hateful way “We will have a mandatory meeting” The rest of the day she kept very much to herself. Which was ok with me too!

So why is she so hateful towards me? I can not just let things roll off on me. I am a person who takes everything serious and yes I am a bit on the emotional side. especially with all the things going on at home with my son.

Now when I left a coworker of mine texted me on the cell phone and asked me if I knew that the “Mandatory meeting” is scheduled for tomorrow morning on my day off. Nobody even tried to tell me that the meeting is tomorrow. I was off yesterday, and I guess that’s when they told everyone involved, but they forgot to mention it to me.
I wonder if I should even go there. It is not like I can open my mouth and tell them how I feel about the Supervisor.

The thing is I really used to like her when I was a cashier, but now since I work directly with her daily, it is really taking the best of me!

I am truly sorry, it is not like I did it on purpose.

Why is everyone trying to grieve me? Is it me? What is it that I should change?
I am so depressed I can’t see straight.
God knows my heart is in the right place. He knows cause he sees where people cant see. He knows my thoughts before I think them. He knew that I wont stop loving him and put him first. He knew that this relationship with my grandson is important and new to me.
Why can’t people understand where I come from?

Why is it so hard to give me love instead of harsh words?

About work…….don’t they see I work really hard? Shouldn’t there be some positive comments and not hateful words or looks or both?

Hunter and his Mom did come at about 2:00 pm and just left a few minutes ago. So I had him for about two hours with me. he is just so precious even though he is still very tense when I took him in my arms. But I understand he doesn’t know me yet. But Tammy assured me that this will change. I didn’t tell her about my fears. (I wrote about them in the previous post) At first I was going to, but than I decided against it. I just wait it out and with the Lord’s help everything will be good!Of course I took a lot of pictures and one little video of him.I will try to post the video later (I have to figure out how to do that. Perhaps I have to upload it first to Youtube and than in my blog.But here are a few pictures from him.

So now you got the update of my pride and joy “Hunter” I am so happy that she brought him by and spend some time with me. The last two pictures are from his birthday party when he turned 1 year old. See that chocolate face

Hope I see him soon again !Andrea

UPDATE: I just found out that I deleted the video.grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Don’t know what happen but that video is gone  :(  There will be hopefully a next time. But on the deleted video he said his words he learned and it was so cute. But it is gone

I got up this morning at 6 am, at 8:30 am I was already on my way to Wal-Mart and No, not for working but for shopping.

Today will my grand baby finally come to my house and I wanted everything to be right!

I pray so hard, but this thoughts wont go away!

Anyway, I am so excited to see him. I was in that stupid store for almost four hours, looking at all those baby clothes and stuff, and than in the toy department.

As you all know my husband works nightshift, but I already told him, it probably get noisy for the first time in our house. Because the little one is either laughing , or crying or both who knows. So I told him “Get ready for some noise here today!”

I close for now, but I might post later on tonight and tell you all how it was. Now I will go into my Bible and read my chapter for today since I didn’t go to Church again today

I am in a pickle!

The thing is this……………….

My son filed a petition to have unsupervised visitation and a court date is set. (The same day is another court date at the same court where she petitioned the court that my son pay the ordered child support.

Now she doesn’t want him to have unsupervised visitation (neither do I).
And I do believe even though I might have to say nothing it will weigh in the judges mind when the mother of the “dad” sits at the “mother’s” site.

I just spoke to my hubby on the phone (he is at work) and in a way he thinks I should do it. Since my son is so disrespectful to me, and also hasn’t seen his son in months. (Not that he couldn’t see him, but he chose not to see him)
We believe all that he shouldn’t have unsupervised visitations. The child doesn’t know him!

Now she asked me really nicely. What should I do?

A young Wintley Phipps …………..