HeAintThroughWithMeYet

And still my son is gone, and yet I found peace with this situation.

I wont enable him any longer. I realised that with all the taking him back and letting him run his life, I was only enabling him to screw it up some more. Today on the way to church I received a call from him. He was saying that he will stop by on Christmas day. That he will bring his girlfriend with him.
I told him….NO! He can come and visit with us, but alone. At this time I dont need to meet girlfriends of him. I would like to spend time with him, and I think him alone is sufficient at this time.
He explained that the girlfriend already bought me a gift. But again I told him, I didnt ask for nothing, and I dont want nothing. If he likes to see us, we are more than happy to see him, but alone. And that he needs to learn to respect our wishes.
Perhaps to some it doesnt sound right, but if you would know the situation we are in with him, you probably would agree!

I decided not to buy any gifts for my son which would only money thrown out the window. I decided to start having a relationship with my grandson which I have never seen expect on one picture when he was a few days old.
I am already in contact with the mother of the child and hopefully we will meet after Christmas and I can finally hold that little baby in my arms. So I think my money spent on this little one is better than on my son.

On another note, I am so blessed!
My Pastor and his wife gave me a beautiful fruitbasket with apple butter and a candle and of course fruit in it. And today my Pastor gave me a 4 cd “Quick Verse” collection. I already got it donwloaded on my pc and it is wonderful. It is so much to learn from and to read and read. I just love it! For some reason however, I havent found the Bible yet on it. That to me is funny!

I received a bunch of cards after our service. And we had our little “Linger Longer” which we have once a month. The church was so nice decorated with candles and wreaths and lights. Yep its Christmas time you all!!!!!!!!!!

When I came home and made me a pot of coffee and than sat down to call my mom. In Germany as I wrote before we celebrate Christmas on the 24th. And usually I call my mom on the 24th. But this year I cant because I have to work tomorrow. And I dont know when I will get off. I know for a fact that I work at least until 6pm which would be than midnight in Germany. So I told her I will call her on the 25th.
My Mom is sicker than before, I could hardly understand what she was saying to me on the phone. Her voice got really bad from this last surgery. She told me she needs to go back for the same surgery AGAIN on January 4th, 2008.
They AGAIN have to open her throat and do something so she can breathe.
I am very concerned about how long I will have her around. But I am also happy because I know my Mom is saved and we will meet again when my time comes. That is truly a comfort to me.

My husband on the other side is upset with God for taking his mom. This morning I asked him if he would like to go with me to church. Is reply was ” I will never set a foot in a church again” How sad!
I told him his mom would be very upset the way he talks and feels. Because I know how often she told him to go to church with me. And he always gave her the same excuse ” I cant because I work nightshift and I have to get up at 4:30pm on Sundays, Mom”. 
I know my husband going through a rough time this year and especially right now with Christmas. We always receieved a card and/or gifts from her. And he always called her on Christmas day. And now this is nomore. Everything has changed!

All I can do is pray for him and my son at this time. I leave it to the Lord to work in both their hearts and turn them towards him.

Well you all, thats all for now.

I wish you all a blessed Christmas

Love and Blessings
Andrea