HeAintThroughWithMeYet

The passed several days and weeks are in uproar here again.

Satan attacks wherever he can. I am 100 % convinced that these are attackes of him. Like I got the new job and shortly thereafter I got sick, so sick that I missed work for a few days and still to this day I am sick. Not as sick as I was but still I am plaqued by a severe cough. My doctor had me do a check-up with a specialist and the did lung xrays as well as breathing treatments. And I had to breath in tubes.
THe result will be soon explained to me. But we all know the smoking is a mayor issue in this.

My husband is not well either. All started when his mom died. From than on he went down hill, emotionally and healthwise.
It began with prostate peoblems and he had a physical. The physical showed that he has high blood pressure and high cholesterol. Well he was put on a medicine for the blood pressure and now we figuring our a diet that lowers his cholesterol. I am still trying to figure out what to feed him. Everytime I think I found a food he can eat, it turns out he cant have it.

Than to all this he complained about gum pain. This went on for over a week and yesterday he saw an oral surgeon. Well, the oral surgeon said he cant help him, but he needs to see a regular dentist. So we managed to get an appointment with the dentist and he has an periodontic abcess as well as bone loss. So now he is on antibiotics for that abcess and has an apppointment at a specialist for the periodontosis or whatever you call it. He is in very much pain right now.

So last evening we started to talk and he said to me.
“You know when we went to your church cookout?” I said “YES!” He said
“Well I almost started to go to your church “Men’s Breakfast”, and than all this happened with Mom. And now I just cant go and be in a church and worship like I planned on doing”
Well the only thing I said was ” You know where your Mom is at, and she knew where she is going. And I think it is very selfish of us that are left behind that we can not be happy for her…. that her suffering is over….that she is with Jesus!” I asked him, Would you rather have yor Mom here alive but suffering each and every day?”
I also told him ” We were sparated for 6 years and divorced and living far apart, had no contact, and yet we are back together and remarried. And all that happened about a year before your Mom got sick. Dont you think that this was from above?”

He shrugged his shoulders.

Than he said ” You think that it is Satan who brought all this on?”
And I explained to him ” The only thing  I know is this……we were apart and we got back together, right at the time where you will need me most. Where none of the people you hung out with could comfort you like I do. With me you feel like family. You know closer than just a husband and wife. We are like blood. And he agreed. I dont know if Satan brought all this on. But I know he tried to destroy and with you he found a good target!
Because you let him in to your soul.
He said “Andrea I was so close and so happy, and so near going to church when I watched you going to church and going to Bible Study, I was so close to do all that too. And now I dont know anymore.
I told him “Michael, whenever you ready to give Jesus another try let me know. I wont push and pressure you right now, you have to figure this out by yourself. I just know that your Mom is with Jesus and she is happy and she would want you to walk with Him too!”

This is all I can do! I tried pressure that didnt work. I pray for him constantly. Yes we are under attack but I wont let go of my Saviour, and I hope my husband comes around soon too. Together we are so much stronger.
I do have a plan though.
See my husband is actually a helpful person and I am planning on asking my Pastor to ask my husband to haul something with his pic-up truck for either the pastor or the church so he can have a conversation with my husband. I know its sneaky but it is for his benefit. I am not that mature yet to help my hubby that much. But I know my pastor is a great guy and not pushy, he can turn this thing around for us. And I thought the best thing is if the Pastor asked him to help him out. That will open the door to talk and that will lead my hubby in the right direction!

Also he said “He is afraid that if he would go back with me to a meeting, or church, that something else would be taking away from him and he is scared”

Well if I dont quit smoking soom, it might be me. I didnt say that to him, I just write it here. And I will quit! I am on my last 5 packs and I am thinking that I will quit when I am finish with them. Please pray for me!!!

And pray for my husband he really needs Jesus in his life desperatly.

Love and Blessings
Andrea